My performance at the expo...

halo... laz sunday... i had my laz performance of the year which was held at the expo... tt day morning... i went to the simei comunity centre to join all my seniors in playing the pices tt we r performing as they r going to combine wif my school's chinese orchestra... after i went there i discovered tt they are going to play more challenging pieces tt my school had nv played... so the conductor asked me to take the scores... i think should b around 6 to 7 pieces of song tt i took tt day... at firz i tot i cud not master the pieces as it will b the performance at nite... but after running through the pieces wif my conducto n all my seniors through sight reading, i found out the pieces were not tt difficult at all... so after the dismissal i went home to bathe n olso to practice the pieces... i had manage to master the pieces in 1 hr time of practisng... i was so happy... but when it came to the real performance, the conductor din select the challenging pieces... i was so dissapointed... may b he was juz afraid tt my school chinese orchestra cud not manage it as my school standard wan very "good"... aiya next yr we oso going 4 syf... good anot next week we know la... but i think if all the members remain so "hardworking".... they confirm get top in certificate of participation... aiya.. sometimes i really dispise them... their standard is worse den my primary school string ensemble... i nothing to sae le... only can b sad n angry 4 them lo... even my cello group... oso i duno wat to sae... the good chaiman of my school CO appointed me to b the leader of cello n bass... wa... u hear the name like very nice hor... but u work is not as nice as the name lo... the name makes u feel big hor... but if u work wif ur members..they take u as duno wat... dun listen to u... feel like going CO den go... dun feel like going den dun go... just a pack of shit... dennv come nvm... whenever we needto play as a group wif other instrument i even ve to solo when my senior not aound... haiz... yesterday my group members juz went to play wif other instrument wif me... they duno how to sight read den still dun wana come 4 practice... i very tired wif them... whenever i m going CO n owayz think of facing those trash on ly i word came to my mind... which is "SIANZ...." it was like totally no mood to go anymore... but i will get to quit one day if i get into singapore national youth orchestra... actually i ve told the chairman bout quiting a few days ago... but she dun let me off... so i intend to quit mayb by the end of next year n join other cca... cuz next yr got new intake from the new sec one... c if got miracle anot lo... wish tt there is one who is willing to leran... i dun care if tt person is talented anot... juz willing to learn... n when tt person is up to my standard i will pass the leader place to tt person n i sae bye bye to the chinese orchestra.... tt will b the end of my existence in the CO... i dun need to nag at ppl n waste my saliva... haha...